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Aiming For The Center
The word Sin, or Syn in old English, means the distance between where the arrow lands and the center of the target.
Aim is everything.
To hit the target we must focus on the Center. If you look anywhere else you will miss the mark.
A Warrior's Tale
My name is Lou.
It means Warrior of Renown
I got saved, or became a follower of Jesus Christ in 1982. However, I lived just like most western "Christians" for two years until my world collapsed. When it did, I cried out to God, and Jesus Christ appeared to me in vision. I have followed Him closely ever since.
I have had over 20 dreams from God and half as many visions. I am nobody important in this world, but I have a solid 40 year walk with the God of the entire universe...to Him I am a renown warrior.
Here, I will tell what I've learned in my fight so far.
Interactions With God #121
Sometime in 2012, we left the church we had been attending, Ridgeview, because after a couple of years we just could not connect with people. I did the classes, jumped through all the hoops, went to home groups and attended leadership classes even though I could have taught them. No one really wanted to get to know us. We did do a few dinners with folks, but it never happened more than once. There was even a time at a men's home group that I was sitting near a group talking a
Nov 12, 20214 min read
Interactions With God #120
It has been 6 years since I last wrote down and posted an Interaction With God. To be honest, I just got discouraged. I have still been in the wilderness, with way too many false hopes of it ending soon. God's testing must get harder, much like exercises in order for our faith muscles to grow. It isn't fun, but it is necessary to become the best God can make you. So, nothing big happened on my birthday in 2011. But not long after, my family and I were invited to a dinner get
Nov 10, 20214 min read
Interactions with God #119
I am not a victim. I am not happy, but I know there is a reason for it all. Why would I be happy? God put my career in the toilet. He put my family in turmoil and put a huge halt to any ministry I could or would do. When you wake up in the morning and have no hope that today will be good, and you do not see any change coming for tomorrow or the day after that, you must turn to God for a reason to breathe or you will just stop. This is the wilderness. This is where you are a
Nov 12, 20155 min read
Interactions with God #118
I started off 2011 still working as a contractor for Informatica. Though, because they were not very organized, they just paid me ahead of time for the sales I was supposed to make. My sales were also much better since I was now known by many customers and sales teams. Finally, I did go full time by mid-April. This happened while I was in the hospital for a four day stay. Hospital! What happened? Well, in March I had back surgery. I’d had a back issue since 1999, but it had
Nov 10, 20157 min read
Interactions with God #117
There are those in this world with a higher calling. A calling, which if any of them were asked by God to take willingly, they would say “NO”. A calling that they generally are not often aware that they even have. This calling is a dangerous one. No, not for them. It is extremely dangerous to others. These are the most dangerous people alive. They are the Least. “Ok, you lost me...” Just to refresh yourself, take a look at Matthew 25:31-46. Yes, that is the parable of the She
Sep 5, 20158 min read
Interactions with God #116
I have written before regarding my issues with sleeping. I am not a good sleeper. I wake up in the middle of the night fairly often and have trouble getting back to sleep. When this happens, I usually talk to God. Most nights are really dull and uneventful. I just end up complaining to Him by asking “why am I awake?” On occasion, He will take my hand and lead me into a train of thought that runs quickly down a rather large rabbit hole. This is exactly what happened one night
Jun 20, 20155 min read
Interactions with God #115
Man of God. I think to many this term conjures an image of a guy in a long robe and with a long staff. Though this hollywoodesque picture may have fit the narrative back during the time of Moses, it doesn’t fit anymore. Now, a man of God would look just like everyone else, except for how they live. A Man of God is simply that, a MAN - OF - GOD. Any man or woman who REALLY belongs to God will show their faith. How is this faith shown? By miracles? Possibly, yes, but that can b
May 22, 20156 min read
Interactions with God #114
Our identity is very important and what defines our identity is even more important. For many men, our careers define much of how we see ourselves. My career was in the toilet. For many Christian men, our ministry defines us. I no longer had any ministry. For still other men, family and friends give us our identity. I had zero local friends. No one that I could talk to or count on. My family was in a hurting place due to my loss of work and church issues. Affected to the core
May 8, 20154 min read
Interactions with God #113
When God has you in boot camp or in the more christianese vernacular, “a time in the wilderness”, all you hope for is the ending. You understand that the purpose of the trial is to make you grow, but who in their right mind really wants to live there all that long? I sure don’t. Day after day, you get up with the hope that just maybe today is the day. The day when things will start to work and people won’t despise you anymore. Sadly, by noon, you already know…”today, is not t
May 7, 20156 min read
Interactions with God #112
There was a time when I was well liked in church. Leadership did after all ask me to lead a church plant…twice! With that in mind, it was hard to understand what happened at the Scottsdale and Anthem Vineyard churches. When the same thing happened in the Rowlett, TX Vineyard, it was almost too much to handle. Look, I am a sales guy. I can talk to anyone. When I have a good job, I get paid a rather large salary to do so. Why then did I continually have trouble building any typ
Apr 20, 20154 min read
Interactions with God #111
For many years, I had been having reoccurring dreams about flying. Not in a plane, no, flying like superman. As I have already said, my dreams are rather vivid. I feel wind, g-forces, and smell flowers…yes, very vivid dreams. This reoccurring dream had been happening since the mid 1990’s. Not real often, maybe every couple of years or so. The dreams were not exactly the same, but the main point was. In each of the dreams, I could fly, though for some unknown reason, I would s
Apr 20, 20152 min read
Interactions with God #110
Aside from the pending HP acquisition of Mercury Interactive, the job was going rather well. I liked my manager, Patrice Anderson, and my director Dick LaForge. They were really nice people. My sales were good and it was great to work with Rich again. The full acquisition would not take place until February of 2007. To get everyone on board for the changes, HP required each of us to take a training class to prepare us for the merger and to answer any questions that might co
Apr 19, 20153 min read
Interactions with God #109
During 2006, the government still had that foolish housing program going on, the one that killed the economy in 2008. Fortunately for us, it was a benefit. We bought a house in Royse City, TX for $190,000. I didn’t have a job at the time, and neither did Martha. However, because of the federal push for home loans to be given out to pretty much anybody, none of that mattered. Of course, the fact that we dropped $60,000 as a down payment didn’t hurt much either. Our goal, was t
Apr 18, 20152 min read
Interactions with God #108
After you go through experiences like we did, you begin to wonder about your value, your worth. It is easy as a Christian to accept why worldly people don’t like you. They are not supposed to. However, when those who are supposed to “love their enemies” don’t, well, it doesn’t leave you with any room to be arrogant. If you have read any of the prior Interactions, you would already know. I didn’t start out this journey thinking I was anyone of importance. So, why would so many
Apr 17, 20153 min read
Interactions with God #107
God’s will. I find it interesting how we struggle with whether or not we are in God’s will for our lives. If we are actively living in sin, well, it is kind of obvious that we are not. But what about our decisions? How do we know if we choose the way God wants us to go? Simple really. You can know at any point in your life that you are in God’s will. “Really???” Yup, really. Say that you are facing a fork in the road. You can choose to go right or go left. Which way do you go
Apr 17, 20154 min read
Interactions with God #106
As I feared, I lost my job with Crossvale by the end of March 2005. It was my 5 th layoff so far. I didn’t get fired, as there was no valid reason for them to do so, even though my manager didn’t like me very much. I got laid off after working for them only six months. The reason was that they had begun to have financial problems due to the downturn in the economy. This had caused some internal squabbles between the partners. They decided to let go of half of their company.
Apr 16, 20156 min read
Interactions with God #105
My church experiences haven’t been all bad. I did have problems with the crazy pastors in Houston, but well, they were crazy, so that is understandable. The church I attended in Nashua, NH, had some great people. We made some great friends there. My only problem seemed to be from the pastor of that church. He was never friendly to me and was always critical. It seemed as if my very presence caused him irritation. The Vineyard Church in Chelmsford was great. I don’t think we h
Apr 15, 20154 min read
Interactions with God #104
In the middle of September, of 2004, while facing the discouraging situation with my boss and the Scottsdale church, I got a hit on a resume that I had sent out. The company was called Crossvale. They were based out of Plano, TX. Crossvale, at the time, was owned by three guys. Two of them had been involved in a company called Customware before they started Crossvale. Customware had been acquired by The Middleware Company before Precise Software bought them. These guys knew w
Apr 15, 20153 min read
Interactions with God #103
After I lost my job at IconMedialab, while we were still unpacking in our new house, I again had to begin the job search process. At this point, my resume had 6 years at Sybase, 1.5 years at iPlanet, 10 months at The Middleware Company and 6 months at IconMedialab. Adding the rather large gaps in between these jobs, my work history didn’t look so good. Looking for a job is discouraging enough already. Seriously, all you do is filter through thousands of jobs that you are no
Apr 4, 20154 min read
Interactions with God #102
During a layoff, your job is to look for a job. For my industry, finding a job does not happen by driving around to companies and dropping off a resume. Even back in 2001, I did all of my job searching online. In a specific industry and job role like mine, a job search effort only takes about two to four hours each day. So, you end up with quite a bit of time to kill. With all that time, I began to play a game on the computer called Spider Solitaire. You know the game. You ca
Apr 3, 20153 min read
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